This morning at church I knelt at the altar and asked God to help me focus on Him, rather than on my lover. I have been placing my faith and hope in her, in her forgiveness and our possible reconciliation. But I know that is not where my focus should lie. My focus needs to be on surrendering to God and asking for His help to overcome this addiction -- and to overcome my obsession with my lover. I have to stay sober and I have to stay committed to rigorous honesty, regardless of how my lover responds when I ask for forgiveness. I want her back, but I don't NEED her back. I NEED my higher power to help me in recovery.
I thought about her less today. Still a lot. But less.
Hope
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