This afternoon my sister and I went to a wedding, a young couple that goes to my church. I sat next to my sister and thought, "My lover should be here with me instead of my sister." But of course she wasn't because I drove her away.
As they were saying their vows, I thought: "I broke those vows in my marriage several times."
It was a beautiful wedding, a gorgeous couple, a packed church of celebrators. I felt like throwing up from self-hate.
"I release my guilt and shame." Somehow I must make this affirmation come true.
Hope
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